Bad eggplant

My title is ... Yup.. First of all, everyone is complaining the way other peoples treat them but they don't spend time thinking how they treat other peoples. ( including the past me ) 

Egg is one of my best friends who is a bad tempered person which she admitted it. And of course I write this for her to let her know my true feelings when facing her bad temper. Her temper is so bad that when we are group chatting, she suddenly mad at us at tiny little thingy and start to write sentences that hurt our feelings, my feelings ..which happened few times. For example: Last time, I don't know what I said wrongly and she sent  SHUT UP LAH. My gosh, it hurts me so much like before and before and before and ..again. So I listened to her and I shut up. Yesterday, we met at the toilets and I waved hand to her say hi , she ignored me. So it hurts me and I m so sad that I don't know what to do and what should I do. At the very very very first I was kinda worry because I don't know her well so I will comfort her or what. But now I knew it and I don't know what to do because I scare if I chat with her , she will send that kind of sentences and hurts me again. So every time I wait until she isn't angry which I figure it out when she treat me better but only when she is in a good mood. One time I was very angry with her because she suddenly angry again when I was very happy that I had never been so happy for such long time and she suddenly like that ruined my mood. After that I asked her isit my fault. She replied me a little but most of the problem is she was in a bad mood... And almost all the time I find her happily but after we chat a little while she get mad at me again.  Remember that time she taught me Maths, I knew I wasn't pay 100% attention on it and goofing around but she should never said it was wasting her time. Spending time with me do anything is wasting her time? It is still killin me. How can she said like that ? Your words in my head , knife in my heart. Does she know ?  Feel like cryin. She tweeted a tweet about no one notices her feelings but hey we noticed it because it is so obvious. I just get tired of your bad temper which hurts me and ruin my mood all the time. By the way does she notices mine ? She would never know how painful it is until her best friends say that kind of words to her. ( If you still act like I m born to be like this and so be it. I will be speechless and don't know how to face your bad temper forever. You admit it but you don't change it , your friends can't tolerate you forever because it is drivin us crazy. Don't keep complain other peoples , be the best you that you can be and I write this doesn't mean I have no faults.. You can write me a post about me , my bad words so I can change and stop hurting you because I don't like treating the same way that hurts my friends feelings like them. If the situation get worst after this blog then pretend you never read it and remain the same situtation.) Thanks for reading :) 

Saddest Friendship Story

Last year , a gang of 2F friends hurt me so much that I can't even describe how hurt my heart was by writing this blog. Why I decided to write this ? Because I want to remind me not to let the same thing happen to me again. Once is enough. Below is all my true feelings. 

When we were classmates, they ignored me almost all the time. And the most funny thing was they ignored me so obvious that my another classmate knew. When we were gathering or hanging out , me the lonely one . How cute. They always chat with Zhe Yin ( my best friend which has good looking and kinda popular)  Even the handsome banana did that to me which sit behind me that time. They kept on chatting and chatting. Invisible me haha. Sometimes he said something really satire to me. My heart was so hurt until I decided to unfriend him but something good happened so no unfriend him after these. See.. they like my best friend more than me. She knew but she can't help and I don't blame her. I felt like I am wasting my precious time spending time with them that time. (One year) 

Then this year.. I thought I finally got out this situation. But ... I have to follow Zhe Yin sit with them at the school hall everyday, ignored by them everyday. Even recess time also have to face them. Ignore ignore ignore. Finally, this year road run. We.. They hanged out together and been followed by a busy body -me. Eat my food and see there see here like not being ignored by them but failed. I can't stand it anymore. I went to find egg without their noticing. I told her almost everything and I am very glad to have her as my best friend. She accompanied me after that. Then, Zhe Yin called me and I told her I m with egg that time. Then, she called me again to go home. I met her at wucha and realized it wasn't the time to go back home. I sit there like an idiot , pretending not being ignored by kept on playing games which I m not interested in. They thought i emo. How cute. Then finally I got back home, and my parents started to ask me why I m so sad that time. I don't know why my tears started to drop and I officially started to cry. I cried so hard. My parents asked me why and I told them it was all about friends thingy then I got scolded by them when I said something bad to them because I m in a very bad mood that time. They told me don't be friend with people who doesn't even care a single shit of me. I thought carefully and I decided to unfriend them at once. I also post post on insta and wechat but seems like none of them realized .So  I started to be  cool to them that time and I quit the group that I love it so much that I only realized  when I click the quit button I started to cry. It was the very first time I cried for friendship. It surprised me that I don't even know how it was so important to me. Was very relaxing after did all that and Wen Xin told me that banana was very sad and told me not to be like that. But she don't know how much they been hurting my heart. I saw banana was really sad with my own eyes at school. I felt bad for him and I wrote him a letter because he changed a lot after he read his birthday card last year so I did the sorta same thing again and we are good. They ( not including banana anymore ) knew it and one of them changed a little. Another one knew it but haven't change and she admitted she ignore friends easily with smiley face. I don't know why I forgive them that time how stupid i m. Because after that they remain the same way they treat me like before which made me so hurt because I finally 100% know they aren't the friends I need they don't care about me. Our friendship are over. How I knew? Everyday their action tell me man. I even cried in front them without their noticing because they were busy chatting with Zhe Yin. I made my best decision ever that time. I won't cry for them the third times anymore. I started to be cool to them and it works out which I m proud of it because I m protecting myself from getting hurt again. But one day, they want spent their recess time with the boys. I didn't follow them because I scare banana does that to me again. I m so afraid so I don't even went there to tell Zhe Yin I have to go first. I m avoiding ? I guess. Well what past is past. Banana is my best friend now. I m grateful and I m afraid to lose him again so please understanding me. Thanks for reading! ( writing this with happy smile！） ☺️☺️ 

Friends

Friends are important. They are part of your life. They are different compare with each other. They are the people who have the power of hurting you and making you happy. Sometimes when they are in bad mood, they don't treat you nice as usual so as their friend you have to tolerate them. Of course you will have at least one  ' I can't stand it anymore ! ' day. But if you think another way, you maybe treat them not very nice too when you are in a bad mood. Da-aa. Who can be happy every 24 hours? 

We always think only our friends don't treat us well, but we actually also don't 100% treat them well. So we have to tolerate them. Of course hope them will realize it one day and tolerate us too. Appreciate friends who care about you. And say thank you to faith because it brought them to me 😘😘😘       

Happy messages

Today night ( 13/4 ) after finished watching Disney movies, I started to play my phone. First, I opened wechat. Oh my two fake food daughters! They were prasing me and said something that  I 100% will do after read their messages. I felt so happy not just because they praised me, another reason is they know me so well because I did all what they said after I read the messages. The messages were like a list of things to do after read the messages! ( so happy ) Then, shocking stuff happened ! When I m writing a message then banana sent out a Message that has the same meaning with my Message ! It really freaked me out ! I were like 'whaaat the ' . They really warm my heart <3 Thanks for letting me Know I have friends who know me well, really very very well.  Our friendship have no expired date :p [ I used iPad to write this so I can't upload photo that I screenshoted in my phone , sad case huh? ] anyways happy moment ! :D