Saddest Friendship Story

Last year , a gang of 2F friends hurt me so much that I can't even describe how hurt my heart was by writing this blog. Why I decided to write this ? Because I want to remind me not to let the same thing happen to me again. Once is enough. Below is all my true feelings. 

When we were classmates, they ignored me almost all the time. And the most funny thing was they ignored me so obvious that my another classmate knew. When we were gathering or hanging out , me the lonely one . How cute. They always chat with Zhe Yin ( my best friend which has good looking and kinda popular)  Even the handsome banana did that to me which sit behind me that time. They kept on chatting and chatting. Invisible me haha. Sometimes he said something really satire to me. My heart was so hurt until I decided to unfriend him but something good happened so no unfriend him after these. See.. they like my best friend more than me. She knew but she can't help and I don't blame her. I felt like I am wasting my precious time spending time with them that time. (One year) 

Then this year.. I thought I finally got out this situation. But ... I have to follow Zhe Yin sit with them at the school hall everyday, ignored by them everyday. Even recess time also have to face them. Ignore ignore ignore. Finally, this year road run. We.. They hanged out together and been followed by a busy body -me. Eat my food and see there see here like not being ignored by them but failed. I can't stand it anymore. I went to find egg without their noticing. I told her almost everything and I am very glad to have her as my best friend. She accompanied me after that. Then, Zhe Yin called me and I told her I m with egg that time. Then, she called me again to go home. I met her at wucha and realized it wasn't the time to go back home. I sit there like an idiot , pretending not being ignored by kept on playing games which I m not interested in. They thought i emo. How cute. Then finally I got back home, and my parents started to ask me why I m so sad that time. I don't know why my tears started to drop and I officially started to cry. I cried so hard. My parents asked me why and I told them it was all about friends thingy then I got scolded by them when I said something bad to them because I m in a very bad mood that time. They told me don't be friend with people who doesn't even care a single shit of me. I thought carefully and I decided to unfriend them at once. I also post post on insta and wechat but seems like none of them realized .So  I started to be  cool to them that time and I quit the group that I love it so much that I only realized  when I click the quit button I started to cry. It was the very first time I cried for friendship. It surprised me that I don't even know how it was so important to me. Was very relaxing after did all that and Wen Xin told me that banana was very sad and told me not to be like that. But she don't know how much they been hurting my heart. I saw banana was really sad with my own eyes at school. I felt bad for him and I wrote him a letter because he changed a lot after he read his birthday card last year so I did the sorta same thing again and we are good. They ( not including banana anymore ) knew it and one of them changed a little. Another one knew it but haven't change and she admitted she ignore friends easily with smiley face. I don't know why I forgive them that time how stupid i m. Because after that they remain the same way they treat me like before which made me so hurt because I finally 100% know they aren't the friends I need they don't care about me. Our friendship are over. How I knew? Everyday their action tell me man. I even cried in front them without their noticing because they were busy chatting with Zhe Yin. I made my best decision ever that time. I won't cry for them the third times anymore. I started to be cool to them and it works out which I m proud of it because I m protecting myself from getting hurt again. But one day, they want spent their recess time with the boys. I didn't follow them because I scare banana does that to me again. I m so afraid so I don't even went there to tell Zhe Yin I have to go first. I m avoiding ? I guess. Well what past is past. Banana is my best friend now. I m grateful and I m afraid to lose him again so please understanding me. Thanks for reading! ( writing this with happy smile！） ☺️☺️